Category: NOVELS

Gloomy Days Like this one…..



Michigan Ave.








Lately, I have been more gloomy than inspirational. So, I took a couple of days to bring things back together again. Working under pressure is my life. I seem to perform best under pressure. But sometimes that pressure works against my me.

I try not to blame people for the things that I fail at. Instead, I try to realize what kept it from being a success. Most of the time the object of obstruction is… I find myself letting my fears take over me sometime, and that is the worst thing you can possibly do because then it will lead to the phrase “what if”. “What if” are two words that are definitely on my Top Ten words I hate to use list.

I’ve been through the “what if’s” at one point in my life. And guess what? I am still asking myself “what if” because I never accomplished what I wanted to do at that moment. But then, how can you accomplish something when you never tried because you were afraid of what would happen.

I fear rejection. I am pretty sure that no one likes rejection. I have always gotten what I want, but trying to become a writer is introducing me to a whole new world, and that world includes rejection. I am trying to take it with a grain of salt. But guess what? I don’t like salt. Salt is bitter and too much is bad for your health.

I try to look at my rejection as a lesson. I tell myself that maybe it wasn’t the right time, or choice for me. How long can I keep doing this? The worse is opening a letter, or email wishing that the words on the inside are the words that I have been longing for. It’s like opening a college acceptance letter to a college that you really want to attend, and not being excepted. No matter how much you tell yourself that it’s okay, deep down inside it is very disappointing. Looking for the bright light at the end of the tunnel gets a little hard when you can’t see what is in front of you.

But then there is my will to continue, which is stronger than anything. Besides, the only one that can let the rejection, and disappointment take over and win….is me…..but I am definitely not going to let that happen. I will not be responsible for the reason my dreams do not become a success, but I will be held liable for my outstanding accomplishments that I will  achieve. Then I could look back at my fears of rejection, and constant disappointment and smile knowing that there is a reason for everything. Until then……when I am down I will pick myself up, and dust my shoulders off, and continue with perseverance.

I guess this is just one of those days.


Writer’s Hustle

I was watching Beyonce on television today, in the minutes that I had to spare before studing and proofreading my second novel. Liking her as an artist is one thing, but watching her go from a simple girl group to an outstanding business woman, and entrepreneur is outrageous.

Beyonce, amongst others, whether in the entertainment industry, top doctors, successful restaurant owners, writer’s like Stephanie Meyers, or the common business man all got their “hustle” on to get to the top. When using the word “hustle” it does not take the dishonest meaning of the word. However, it is being used in the since of “working hard to get where you want to be, or to overcoming certain things to become successful.”

This can be used in the fact of getting the two most important novels that I have ever wrote published. No matter how pissed I get, or aggravated with finding it hard to get the right publisher, or agent I should continue to get my “Writer’s Hustle” on. Besides, the harder you work at something the better things get, and the easy it comes. Nothing comes without hardwork, or setbacks. That’s what my “Writer’s Hustle” is all about, so I will take it as it comes.

Check out Beyonce getting her “hustle” on like the diva she is: